I Was Made For This

Published Wednesday, July 28, 2004 by Joshua | E-mail this post

I was just pondering today how much I feel that everything that I am doing here is part of God's plan. From the time that God called me to do this I definately had my doubts. I didn't know if I could ever step out of my comfort zone enough to do half of the things that I have done. I didn't know how I would ever raise the money to do this and I definately was afraid of failing but I made a decision to rely on God and it has paid off. God has been here with me every step of the way. I have been stretched out of my comfort zone on more than a few occasions since I have been here. Things that I never would have done before I came here I am now doing on a regular basis.

I also cannot help but think that I must have been made for this. When God created me he must have had something just like this in mind. I am using every gift that God has given me, everything that I know how to do and I am enjoying it. I am using my computer skills to help with the Kix Kids website and to help set up a computer lab that will be networked and connected to the internet through a DSL connection. I am using my guitar playing and singing in order to lead worship services for the kids and adults. I am also using my ability to communicate with and teach kids and am developing my ability to share Christ with them and others too.

I also feel like there is so much more that God is doing here that I cannot even see right now. It is amazing how He works. One day almost half a year ago he laid it on my heart to come here and minister to these kids and today I can already see that it was not only so that they may see Him in me but that I might see His work in myself and in what He can do through me. I don't know why I ever doubted that He would take care of me and provide for me if I followed the path that he laid out for me.

He has. He provided a wonderful host family that I am staying with. I love them like my own family and will be sad to leave them in a few weeks. The boys (Luke and Lee) are like the brothers that I never had. They are so cool. We have had so much fun together watching movies, playing video games, having rubber band wars, going to the keys, working on computers together, and lots of other things too. Leroy and Lori have really welcomed me into the family and made me feel like I was at home since the day I arrived here. I definately plan on seeing them again someday when I am passing through the area and I will definately keep in touch.

God is awesome!!