D2
I come to you and I lay before your feet
A2
In your arms Lord, your love is all I need
C2 G D2
I long for you, my eyes upon your throne
D2
Your spirit Lord let it come and fill this place
A2
Your power Lord, your mercy and your grace
C2 G D2
Holding me, the world it fades away
D2 A2
Speak to me, in the silence of my mind
C2 G
In the stillness I can’t find any other way
D2 A2
Speak to me, when words are not enough
C2 G
But the fullness of your love is all I need
D2
Your all I need
I come to you and I lay before your feet
A2
In your arms Lord, your love is all I need
C2 G D2
I long for you, my eyes upon your throne
D2
Your spirit Lord let it come and fill this place
A2
Your power Lord, your mercy and your grace
C2 G D2
Holding me, the world it fades away
D2 A2
Speak to me, in the silence of my mind
C2 G
In the stillness I can’t find any other way
D2 A2
Speak to me, when words are not enough
C2 G
But the fullness of your love is all I need
D2
Your all I need
At the end of some days I feel so lost and confused. I don't get it. Where did I go wrong to feel like I have accomplished nothing? Why do I feel like I am just spinning my wheels. Is it because I haven't just dropped everything and gone into ministry like I feel God is calling me to do? I am working on getting to a point where I can go into the ministry but how can I do that when I haven't paid off my debts? How can I go from so close to God to so far away in a matter of a few days or weeks? I still feel like I am slowly getting closer to the goal of doing what He wants for me and what He has asked me to do. And most days I feel quite close to Him. But today I feel far away. Farther away than ever. Perhaps trapped in my own cynical thinking. Entangled in my own web that I have woven for myself.
Here I am broken again I am lost
Living in Sin and shame while you bear the cost
Surviving somehow but not feeling like I'm alive
Sitting back idly as days pass me by
In all that I've seen and all that I've learned
I know you are with me in every move I make
Yet somehow still my steps are unsure
Never feeling the boldness that I should
I must relearn and I must rethink
How to come to you how to live in your light
How to wrap myself in your love
How to die daily...... the only way I will know I am truly Alive
Wow, so....that just came to me. Not sure what to write after that.
Here I am broken again I am lost
Living in Sin and shame while you bear the cost
Surviving somehow but not feeling like I'm alive
Sitting back idly as days pass me by
In all that I've seen and all that I've learned
I know you are with me in every move I make
Yet somehow still my steps are unsure
Never feeling the boldness that I should
I must relearn and I must rethink
How to come to you how to live in your light
How to wrap myself in your love
How to die daily...... the only way I will know I am truly Alive
Wow, so....that just came to me. Not sure what to write after that.
WOW!!!! I am still getting closer and closer to Him everyday. Alot of things are happening right now and I am still changing for the better. I am preparing to go into full-time ministry hopefully within the next year. I am not in as huge of a hurry as I was to begin with but I am definately making progress. I have to work hard and pay off all of my debts as I go so that I will be able to afford living off of a very small salary when I go into the ministry. I have found a tremendous opportunity to interview for a part time virtual (from home) job that would be perfect for me to have while doing ministry. I am thinking about going for the full time equivelant of this job until I am able to pay off my debts and then switch to part time if they will allow me to do so. I can also always work part time doing contract work on computers. I guess all that computer training will pay off after all!! God is so awesome when His plan comes together.
Anyway, the youth at my church are doing a mission trip and instead of going somewhere far away they are going to a local site each day of the week for their projects. So yesterday since I was off work and our youth leader had to go into work for the day I kind of took her spot for first part of the day. I have to say it was a lot of hard work but it was a lot of fun!! We went to the Center of Hope which is an organization that helps needy people in Parker county and serves them food and other such things. We went into their warehouse which was a mess and completely cleaned it out and re-organized it. As a bonus I was able to help them set up one of their donated computers. After all of our hard work for the day I took a break and went and ate dinner with my mom and then headed back to the church to help with the youth again. The youth leader had returned from work and they were getting ready to head to fort worth for putt-putt. I tagged along and almost won but somebody else beat me by two points. So then we went back to the church for worship time where we listened and sang along to some music and then I gave the short talk during worship time. I guess all this is to say that even though I have been striving for this goal of getting back into ministry, yesterday just reminded me of how much I love it and how much I feel like I am with God when I am working with and directing youth. I love the hard work, I love the challenges, and I love the kids. And most of all I love making a difference and seeing the changes in their lives as a result of God's work through me and the other youth leaders. I was made for this!!!
Anyway, the youth at my church are doing a mission trip and instead of going somewhere far away they are going to a local site each day of the week for their projects. So yesterday since I was off work and our youth leader had to go into work for the day I kind of took her spot for first part of the day. I have to say it was a lot of hard work but it was a lot of fun!! We went to the Center of Hope which is an organization that helps needy people in Parker county and serves them food and other such things. We went into their warehouse which was a mess and completely cleaned it out and re-organized it. As a bonus I was able to help them set up one of their donated computers. After all of our hard work for the day I took a break and went and ate dinner with my mom and then headed back to the church to help with the youth again. The youth leader had returned from work and they were getting ready to head to fort worth for putt-putt. I tagged along and almost won but somebody else beat me by two points. So then we went back to the church for worship time where we listened and sang along to some music and then I gave the short talk during worship time. I guess all this is to say that even though I have been striving for this goal of getting back into ministry, yesterday just reminded me of how much I love it and how much I feel like I am with God when I am working with and directing youth. I love the hard work, I love the challenges, and I love the kids. And most of all I love making a difference and seeing the changes in their lives as a result of God's work through me and the other youth leaders. I was made for this!!!
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